Ever felt like you don't matter, that no one wants you around... I feel like that more than I don't, I know its stupid because the more I feel like that the more I make it true by the way that I act when feeling that way. Yet I can't pull myself out of that feeling.
So where do I go from here? I can't repair this by myself, I can't cope with all of it by myself, I know this, so I sought help. I had one appointment and really didn't get much from it, hopefully he will help with a little situation at the family doctors so I can go back and see them to help with the way I feel. So maybe thats a positive thing!
I got some really good advice that helped, and those words were "She shouldn't have to be the strong one".
My daughter shouldn't be the stronger person here, my duty as a father includes being the stronger person (most of the time), knowing this person it really shook me and made me become a little stronger, I have had much better days since then and look forward to what can be accomplished in the future, I'll get by with a little help from my friends :)